PaInt tHe LiF3

我喜欢你。。
我非常的喜欢你。。。
我真的真的很喜欢你。。。。
strategic management,你听到没？？
你是否能接受我呀？？
以简洁的方式告诉我关于你所有的一切。。。
好让我能够更进一步了解你好吗？？
你有太多的角色，
而我。。
面对你那么久，
却还是无法搞懂你。。
唉，
给我多一些的提示好吗？
我。。
是真心的。。。
你感觉到了吗？？= x
我真的很努力在催眠自己，搞懂你。。。

老天爷爷，
帮帮忙吧。。。
我真怕记不完啊~~ =（
给些暗示我吧 (^.^)

It's Saturday!
Okay, i totally don't what to blame actually =p
Woke up early in the morning,
after bath and breakfast,
is time to walk out waiting bus to sit for International Marketing test.
I have been checked the bus schedule for few times to make sure i am not going to miss it.
Unfortunately, the bus was not coming and even taxi uncle told me security guard not allowed them to fetch student go in UNI..
Speechless....what can i do to make it on time? no idea....
What to do? --> WAIT for next bus...
At the end, i was late for 35minutes and the test is only 1hour. Even, i got reason but it seem not acceptable to the lecturer.
OKAY, fine... I just used that 25min to finish the test.."tikam, tikam, and tikam"
(1st time finish test so fast >.< )
I have no idea whether i did it correctly but what only i can do right now is to pray to God.
hope i can past please~~
Suddenly i felt i was very "yeng"..haha!
Can finish it on time...fuiyoh! =D

I really don’t know how to describe my feeling right now. It’s make my life became miserable and mess. I always thought that I were tough and brave. I always believe that harvest always come to you if you have put efforts into it.

I have been tried once and once but life is full with the challenges. I am still the loser in this situation. I can’t accept with the result I get just now. Once again the result proves that I have no talent to continue study in the university. Once again the result slip showed me that I am the loser no matter how I were trying to fight with it from past until now. How many times I still need to face with this disappointed result. It doesn’t mean how much efforts you put on it will get the same value or even more than that to yourself. A friend asked me not to give up since I have been tried my best to continue study until final year. Yea! You are right; I still have two semesters then can finish my degree next year. But I can’t accept the termination appear again and again in my result.

I felt unhappy to study in this university. I felt stress and always been trapped in a cage. Just like a bird with broken wings even freedom is there. I don’t know how to tell to my friend or even my family members. I always promise myself not to make people around me worry. I hope that I can handle problems myself and don’t want to be troublesome.

Rainne is exhausted now. Disappointed to myself…. Fed up with this mess studies life… shame with the result I got today. I am sorry… >.<

101010, what will you think when you see this number? Everyone will have different experience on that day. This is because it’s only occur only once in our lifetime, doesn’t it?

I am sure this number will become a special and memorable day for my primary school friend- Yee Chek. A day received numerical wishes from relatives and friends… A day which started changes her life to be walk together with her husband… A day that make them “two become one” where everything is not only one but have to share together, face together, and settle together… They found each other in thousand million people in the world, it’s a FATE right? ^^

I am happy on that day because I became one of witnesses to the marriage. Before, I have been heard that bride will always be the one who is prettier in the life. I am totally agreed with that after I have saw my friend- the bride on that wedding day. It is not easy to maintain the relationship between couple until get marriage. I don’t know more things about her and her husband but I believe that both of them will be the happy couple in the future.

Congratulation and wish you two will happy forever after =）

“Hello, hello, baby; you called. I can’t hear a thing. I have got no service in the club you see, see... Wha-Wha-What did you say? Oh, you're breaking up on me…Sorry, I cannot hear you, I'm kinda busy. K-kinda busy K-kinda busy…”

Yea! I am kinda busy sleeping actually…who is calling huh? Better don’t let me know cos I sure kick him or her 99… Eer…see the name I also don’t dare to kick people already…the one who woke me up from dream was my SISTER… Aiks!

“Wei! Still sleeping ar, pig?”

“Yalo…”

“Today no class meh? Still want sleep ar?”

“Later have class at 11pm lo…why?”

“Haha! Then you should thank me cos I gave u morning calls ler…haha!”

“…..”

“Actually just want ask you when you are coming back? This week or next week?”

“Next Friday or Saturday lo.”

“Ok! Then I ask Michelle back next week too! Hehe! ”

Mmm….this idea not bad! I really long time does not meet Michelle already. How long do we three have not been met together? I also don’t know it. Just know that’s really long enough (one hand can count the times we met in a year) I really wonder is anyone there having this kind of communication with sisters or brothers huh? @@

Anyway, my dear sister was always did her responsibility to update me something that related to my family or even something happened in my hometown. Same as usual, she was updating me about my family members. But this time had a bad news from my hometown which a fatty aunty was died in her house for 3days only got people knew it. When I heard it, I really get a shock and I just felt that it’s unbelievable. I am surprise with it and felt sympathize to the aunty. She is a widow and lives alone in my hometown. I still remember the last time I saw her was in the coffee shop. She still has talked with me and my mum. But now everything gonna to change. I suddenly felt sad and nervous. I felt wanna go back home to see my mummy… I just felt scare, I don’t hope my mum stay alone in my house… I hope to accompany her…After the news; it totally makes me be down in spirits. What could we think about this? Is only can say life is unpredictable!

A question was jump out in my mind: what decision would you made if you have a chance to go oversea now? Just go and chase your dream or choose to stay here? If today before sure I will choose to go oversea now as if my family could afford. But now I am sure that I won’t choose to do that decision even wan go anywhere, I will bring my mum too! At least must have one of us will accompany my mum…

Anyway, I am just….

* I m just always felt guilty to my mum in everything *

* No matter how much I did, that’s not enough *

* Only the one, my mum *