PaInt tHe LiF3

I really don’t know how to describe my feeling right now. It’s make my life became miserable and mess. I always thought that I were tough and brave. I always believe that harvest always come to you if you have put efforts into it.

I have been tried once and once but life is full with the challenges. I am still the loser in this situation. I can’t accept with the result I get just now. Once again the result proves that I have no talent to continue study in the university. Once again the result slip showed me that I am the loser no matter how I were trying to fight with it from past until now. How many times I still need to face with this disappointed result. It doesn’t mean how much efforts you put on it will get the same value or even more than that to yourself. A friend asked me not to give up since I have been tried my best to continue study until final year. Yea! You are right; I still have two semesters then can finish my degree next year. But I can’t accept the termination appear again and again in my result.

I felt unhappy to study in this university. I felt stress and always been trapped in a cage. Just like a bird with broken wings even freedom is there. I don’t know how to tell to my friend or even my family members. I always promise myself not to make people around me worry. I hope that I can handle problems myself and don’t want to be troublesome.

Rainne is exhausted now. Disappointed to myself…. Fed up with this mess studies life… shame with the result I got today. I am sorry… >.<