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I really don’t know how to describe my feeling right now. It’s make my life became miserable and mess. I always thought that I were tough and brave. I always believe that harvest always come to you if you have put efforts into it.

I have been tried once and once but life is full with the challenges. I am still the loser in this situation. I can’t accept with the result I get just now. Once again the result proves that I have no talent to continue study in the university. Once again the result slip showed me that I am the loser no matter how I were trying to fight with it from past until now. How many times I still need to face with this disappointed result. It doesn’t mean how much efforts you put on it will get the same value or even more than that to yourself. A friend asked me not to give up since I have been tried my best to continue study until final year. Yea! You are right; I still have two semesters then can finish my degree next year. But I can’t accept the termination appear again and again in my result.

I felt unhappy to study in this university. I felt stress and always been trapped in a cage. Just like a bird with broken wings even freedom is there. I don’t know how to tell to my friend or even my family members. I always promise myself not to make people around me worry. I hope that I can handle problems myself and don’t want to be troublesome.

Rainne is exhausted now. Disappointed to myself…. Fed up with this mess studies life… shame with the result I got today. I am sorry… >.<

101010, what will you think when you see this number? Everyone will have different experience on that day. This is because it’s only occur only once in our lifetime, doesn’t it?

I am sure this number will become a special and memorable day for my primary school friend- Yee Chek. A day received numerical wishes from relatives and friends… A day which started changes her life to be walk together with her husband… A day that make them “two become one” where everything is not only one but have to share together, face together, and settle together… They found each other in thousand million people in the world, it’s a FATE right? ^^

I am happy on that day because I became one of witnesses to the marriage. Before, I have been heard that bride will always be the one who is prettier in the life. I am totally agreed with that after I have saw my friend- the bride on that wedding day. It is not easy to maintain the relationship between couple until get marriage. I don’t know more things about her and her husband but I believe that both of them will be the happy couple in the future.

Congratulation and wish you two will happy forever after =）